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So University Is Finally Over

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I've waited for so long to write this post, three years ago I was halfway through my A-Levels and I was ready to start preparing for University. It feels weird now to say that it's all over, and I can relax for a month before starting my new job. When I finished my exam I expected to have this uplifting ecstatic feeling, and I did but I was also left with this weird feeling that it's all over and that's it. It's weird when you've spent so long writing your dissertation and preparing for exams for it to just all be done, everyone finishes at different times and it's just generally weird.

But it makes me more than excited to start my new job and not to get all soppy but start a new chapter, I have a lot of good and bad memories from University. I made friends for life and also experienced parts of life I never thought I would, I always used to cringe when people said that University helped them change as a person. But I do genuinely believe it does something, …

How To Turn A Flat Into A Home

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I touched on this a while back when I first moved back into my flat on how to make space feel like your own. Especially if you can't do any lasting decorating or strip out a wall, instead you can use little things to help jazz it up. Plus it's easier to take down a poster than to re-paint a wall. I found myself not really feeling like the room was really mine for some time, yeah it's got some gig tickets and cute photos of friends on the wall but I just didn't feel like I'd "settled in" I think this has more to do with other things in life and just generally being quite lonely, but I've found a bit of comfort in being able to add things and give it a more personal touch recently. 

I never thought I would sit here and say that I feel comfortable in my flat, it's a weird one for me to discuss but I've just never really felt like I live there. Essentially am renting out space and it's not a real home by no means, but it's somewhere I spend…

The New Blogging Rules? What's The Crack

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So on the 23rd of January, the CMA launched the new set of disclosure rules. This sparked the influencer world, in a mix of emotions. Influencers are celebrities, YouTubers, vloggers, bloggers, your next door neighbour probably or just in general anyone who promotes or has a big following to share products from brands. Previously, many influencers have never disclosed being promoted by the brand, or gifted. There's only so long behaviour like this can go on before people start to realise. This isn't a drama blog so I won't name names, instead, I wanna talk about the new regulations and weigh them up a little. 

Most people are happy and fine with the rules, there was an uproar at first but I think once it fizzled down and people read them it started to make a bit more sense. Most of the regulations are the same as what they were previously. The main one is that anything received whether it is gifted or loaned has to be received. This stops influencers lying about anything th…

The Best Way To Balance Everything At Once

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Okay so, it may not be a complete guide but I have enough faith in the 20 years I've been on this earth to have at least a few tips on how to balance everything. That doesn't mean to say that I have my act together and life is easy breezy, it just means that I've learnt from what does and doesn't work and although I am still in a rut tryna juggle everything I have found a few simple things that make it a bit lighter to handle. I was blessed with the ability to think about multiple things at once, it's a grace and a curse at the same time. As great as it is to think about my next blog post whilst I'm taking notes in my lecture, it's also infused with a slight bit of self-doubt, a review of everything I have to do that week, oh and just a splash of "distraction thoughts".

If you're wondering what on earth a distraction thought is, they're things I notice that I shouldn't be focusing on but I focus on them whilst doing everything else in m…

Going Through Those Makeup Blues

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There's a point in everyone's life where we get a bit bored, whether it's from a tv show you've watched too many times, a song you've listened to and could probably perform better than the band to even the makeup you apply all the time. There's something ingrained in us to love a good routine, from constantly sticking to what we know it's a constant thing we do, but sometimes there needs to be a bit of a mix-up. For me, I've felt a bit meh about my makeup recently, not in terms of the actual makeup on my face and the end result but more so the fact that my makeup consists of products I've used and stuck with maybe a bit too long. I remember rolling my eyes at posting a flatlay one day, consisting of products I use far too often, with the little variation it made me feel like nothing was changing and I love to mix things up every now and then.

So I've taken on a challenge to mix up two parts of my makeup, I have a weird relationship with elements …

Confessions of a Lonely Person

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Loneliness isn't just for when you're by yourself, you can feel it even in a room full of people. It's something that hits you like a wave, it can be a constant feeling or something that just drifts. It's hard to try and describe exactly what it feels like, for me, it feels like sadness and something that I can't shake. I feel alone and isolated and my mind starts going mad. I become more conscious of what's going on and how people are reacting to my every move. 

Being in the city makes it worse to some extent, I make sure that I try and spend at least 20 minutes each day to go outside and just allow myself to walk. I want the time to be able to clear my head and just appreciate what is around me, for a while this was great but I started to feel lonelier the more I did it. My thoughts that were originally all about the environment in and what I was going to do for the rest of the day was then consumed without how alone I felt and this overwhelming fear of going …

What Didn't Make It Into 2018

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2018 had a lot of stuff in it, I got more comfortable with getting photos and it showed the good and bad of the year. There's a lot of bloopers and photos that never made it onto here, I wanted to narrow it down to the main ones that I think really sum up the year or are some of the best memories whether it's from a great blog post or just the day of shooting. 



There's something about this that gets me everytime, me and Jess spent so much time going round the markets and it was so fun to go round and just get some photos and get in the festive spirit. Reality is we kept on going back to the cheese stand to get free samples to the point where the guy was just giving them to use and giving us cheeky deals, it's the little things that make your Christmas x



Here's me pretending to act like I own the place and honestly this is one of my favourite photos of the year. It's not the most flattering one of me but you know what am happy and it was such a funny day of shooti…

Authenticity

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Bit of a funny word authenticity, especially in today's world where our feeds are consumed with fake promotional adverts and people living off of trends that won't last forever. It's hard to see what's real now and social media is only growing to become more and more of a disoriented reality, the powerful thing with social media is that you can paint whatever reality you want. 

And 2018 really taught me that, it was a very big whirlwind of a year. Mixed with a lot of things it really stripped me to my lowest and highest points. But throughout all of this, I tried to remain my "blogger self" which since scrolling through my Twitter is just a person who won't share their opinion much and won't post much of the bad side to things. It's a shame because I am never the person who stays quiet, my personal twitter and Instagram is filled with my life and I feel like I've held back so much last year. 

It's time for AUTHENTICITY it should be in all ca…